had tried so hard to please her. It was as if Joelle were the older sister and Nicole the vulnerable young one. Their dynamic was such that when they had gone out together, people often assumed that Nicole was the baby of the family. âItâs because I have such big boobs,â Joelle once said, to Deanâs amusement. But over the years, she had wielded an influence that Dean often resented. Nicole always sought her advice first, weighing it against everyone elseâs as if it were the sensible standard. Sheâd even tried to believe in Joelleâs version of God.
âSteffy says youâre looking for a babysitter,â Joelle said. âI can watch them if need be.â
âThanks, but weâll be okay.â
âYou canât ask my mother, you canât put that on her.â
âI wasnât planning to.â
âWhatâs your plan?â
âFor now, the boys can come with me to practices. When school starts, Iâll have Monica come over on weeknights when I have to work late.â
âMonica graduated.â
âIâll find a new Monica.â
âThatâs not going to work.â
Dean shrugged. âMaybe it will, maybe it wonât.â
â Dean . I know what your schedule is like in the fall. Youâre never home. You canât get a babysitter every night. Kids need consistency, they need routineâespecially now, with their mother gone.â
âYou think I donât know that?â
âIâm trying to help. Tell me honestly, do you really think itâs the best thing to drag them around with you?â
âDo you think itâs the best thing to take Megan and Jenny out of school?â
âMy decision to homeschool is between me and my pastor. I donât need to defend it to you.â
âAnd I donât need to defend my life to you.â
âWhy donât you take a season off? You know you could. People would understand.â
âI donât want to take a season off,â Dean said.
âYou know, I used to stand up for you. I used to say to Nicole, âHe loves his job, nothing wrong with that.â But now I see that she was right, youâre obsessed.â
âI do love my job,â Dean said. He wasnât about to explain that he needed to coach right now, that football was all he had left, it was the only place he felt at home. The players were like his sons, except they were better than sons because they listened to him, and he understood themâunlike his own sons, who were becoming more mysterious to him with each passing day.
âIâm not going to let you do this to my nephews,â Joelle said. âNicole wouldnât approve. Sheâd be up in arms.â
âNicole doesnât have a say anymore!â Dean was angry now.
Joelle crossed her arms. âI can take them after school. Meganâs old enough to babysit.â
âYou donât get it,â Dean said. âI donât want you to take them.â
âThatâs funny, because Nic dropped them off all the time last year.â
âLeave Nic out of it,â Dean said. âThis isnât about her.â
âI think it is. I think youâre still angry with me. But thatâs no reason to punish Robbie and Bry.â
âThis has nothing to do with you, Joelle.â
âYou blame me. I know you do. I never told her not to see a psychiatrist. All I ever said was that she should be careful about taking medications.â
âLook, I told you I didnât want to go down this road, and I meant it.â
âThis is where every conversation is going to end up until you forgive herâand me. Not that I did anything wrong.â
âYou told her she was depressed because she didnât have faith. You didnât support her.â
âYou want to talk about support? You know what she told me? She said, âJo, I never knew marriage could be
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