naked, into the water. Goosebumps raged my skin as soon as I hit water, but not because it was cold, the water was warm, but because the water seemed to have shocked my senses to life. This was something I had never done before. Number one, outside of the bedroom, I never took my clothes off, number two, I had never swam naked before and number three, I certainly had never swum naked with a man before, but something in Alec made me feel so alive, so free and this felt amazing, outrageous and almost laughable, but amazing all the same.
As we swam in the roof-top pool that over looked the city, a few things came to me that morning. As ludicrous as it sounded, I was one hundred percent in love with this man, and somehow he had awakened me helping me realize that what I had with Kevin was nothing short of toxic. He had never physically hurt me, but he damaged me in other ways, he had knocked my confidence and made me feel worthlessly pathetic. He had left me believing that we would get back together and had me dangling on a string, laughing at me while he bedded some tart he had been seeing behind my back. All the time, me, the stupid and gullible idiot that I was, believed him, believed that what we had was special, when in reality, it was all a lie.
I used to cry myself to sleep feeling empty, as if someone had removed my heart or punched a hole right through it. I never thought I would meet someone else, that I was worthy of being loved at all and it shocked me that I fell so hard and fast for Alec.
That morning as the sun beamed down on us skinny dipping in his own private pool I realized that what I had with Kevin wasn’t love, because love should never leave you feeling inadequate or useless, nor should it leave you unsatisfied and I am not just talking about sex, it was everything else. Kevin never gave me a thing, I put all of me into that relationship and got nothing in return.
When I met Kevin he was overweight and had a terrible haircut. He had no confidence and he certainly hadn’t had a girlfriend before. I created a monster in him, I made him who he was and built up his confidence so that he could better himself, and all I got in return was empty promises and lies.
Meeting Alec made me realize that yes, maybe five days is very early to drop the ‘L’ word, to me though, I honestly believed that Alec was my first real love.
“Come over here,” he said.
“Why?” I asked coyly as I swam on my back.
“Because watching you with the water washing over your insanely, sexy body is driving me crazy.” I stopped swimming and stood up in the water. He raised one eyebrow and smiled again. The sun danced in his eyes like flames as I slowly and seductively swam towards him. As soon as I got within reaching distance I could see his erection under the water, were we going to have sex in the pool? He pulled me towards him, pausing briefly before kissing me. “Relax, no one can see us.”
“I know, but…”
“If you don’t want to, its fine, I just thought that, well, I never have before in a pool and all the times I have been here, you are the first girl I have slept in that bed with much less skinny dipped in here with, I want to try everything with you.”
I thought for a few moments, “Are you sure no one can see or hear us?” I checked.
“Positive, this is the only room up here, and then the roof,” he smiled. I bit on my bottom lip and moved forward before I rapped my legs around his waist. He spun me around so that I was against the side of the pool and slipped inside of me.
He left for his meeting after we had a small breakfast in his room. I dressed and headed back to my room and once there I took a long, hot bath. My legs were a bit sore and I could only put it down to all of the sex I had been having. My legs may have hurt, but my soul was on fire, burning with a desire I had never known, sex was great, it made me feel wonderful and as long as it was with Alec, then I would do it
As we swam in the roof-top pool that over looked the city, a few things came to me that morning. As ludicrous as it sounded, I was one hundred percent in love with this man, and somehow he had awakened me helping me realize that what I had with Kevin was nothing short of toxic. He had never physically hurt me, but he damaged me in other ways, he had knocked my confidence and made me feel worthlessly pathetic. He had left me believing that we would get back together and had me dangling on a string, laughing at me while he bedded some tart he had been seeing behind my back. All the time, me, the stupid and gullible idiot that I was, believed him, believed that what we had was special, when in reality, it was all a lie.
I used to cry myself to sleep feeling empty, as if someone had removed my heart or punched a hole right through it. I never thought I would meet someone else, that I was worthy of being loved at all and it shocked me that I fell so hard and fast for Alec.
That morning as the sun beamed down on us skinny dipping in his own private pool I realized that what I had with Kevin wasn’t love, because love should never leave you feeling inadequate or useless, nor should it leave you unsatisfied and I am not just talking about sex, it was everything else. Kevin never gave me a thing, I put all of me into that relationship and got nothing in return.
When I met Kevin he was overweight and had a terrible haircut. He had no confidence and he certainly hadn’t had a girlfriend before. I created a monster in him, I made him who he was and built up his confidence so that he could better himself, and all I got in return was empty promises and lies.
Meeting Alec made me realize that yes, maybe five days is very early to drop the ‘L’ word, to me though, I honestly believed that Alec was my first real love.
“Come over here,” he said.
“Why?” I asked coyly as I swam on my back.
“Because watching you with the water washing over your insanely, sexy body is driving me crazy.” I stopped swimming and stood up in the water. He raised one eyebrow and smiled again. The sun danced in his eyes like flames as I slowly and seductively swam towards him. As soon as I got within reaching distance I could see his erection under the water, were we going to have sex in the pool? He pulled me towards him, pausing briefly before kissing me. “Relax, no one can see us.”
“I know, but…”
“If you don’t want to, its fine, I just thought that, well, I never have before in a pool and all the times I have been here, you are the first girl I have slept in that bed with much less skinny dipped in here with, I want to try everything with you.”
I thought for a few moments, “Are you sure no one can see or hear us?” I checked.
“Positive, this is the only room up here, and then the roof,” he smiled. I bit on my bottom lip and moved forward before I rapped my legs around his waist. He spun me around so that I was against the side of the pool and slipped inside of me.
He left for his meeting after we had a small breakfast in his room. I dressed and headed back to my room and once there I took a long, hot bath. My legs were a bit sore and I could only put it down to all of the sex I had been having. My legs may have hurt, but my soul was on fire, burning with a desire I had never known, sex was great, it made me feel wonderful and as long as it was with Alec, then I would do it
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