that incredibly romantic. The first time he was late, he blamed it on an east-setting current. Then he wrapped her in his arms and told her when he'd been out of sight of land, he'd been afraid he might drown without ever seeing her again.
He told Dianne she was all he had.
He called her ship-to-shore twice a day. Anchoring on the Landsdowne Shoal, he shot off white flares spelling “Dianne” in Morse code. He saved the best lobsters he caught and cooked them for her dinner. They drank wine every night.
They made love. Holding her so tenderly, his arms quivered, and Tim whispered her name over and over. They'd lie in the bunk of his boat, wrapped in wool blankets and feeling the rhythm of the sea. At those times his eyes would look serious and afraid. He'd gaze at her face as if trying to memorize every feature.
“Don't ever leave me,” he'd whisper.
“Never,” she'd whisper back.
“I can't lose you,” he said. “This has to be forever.”
“How can you think it wouldn't be?” she asked, feeling scared. She was taking the same risk: To give herself this totally to another human being, she had to believe that he was going to stay always, be true to his word, love her until the end of time.
“Things change,” he said. “For some people.”
“Not for us,” she promised.
“My parents,” he said. That night he told her his version of what had happened to his family. They had been so close: His parents had been childhood sweethearts. They'd gotten married at twenty, hadthree little boys. Life had been a dream. They had fished, and crabbed, and swum. Their mother had made them picnics. And then Neil had gotten sick.
The family fell apart. His mother lost her mind: The sheer agony of seeing her son die drove her to drink. Unable to help her, his father stayed at sea. Alan turned to books, Tim went fishing. And Neil died anyway. Alan had told Dianne before, but that didn't make the story any easier to hear.
“I'm so sorry,” Dianne whispered.
“No one's ever going to leave me again,” Tim said. “Ever.”
“You can't control fate,” she said. “As much as you want to.”
Pulling back, Tim's eyes were dark and troubled. He peered into her face, wiping tears from his cheeks.
“I have to,” he said. “’Cause I'm not going through that again.”
“Losing someone you love must be awful,” Dianne said. “But look at Alan-he used your brother's death for something positive. Deciding he wanted to be a doctor.”
Tim moaned.
“Tim!”
“I'm sorry,” he said, and she could feel him shaking. “It's just that there's nothing positive about Neil dying. And I don't like you talking about Alan like he's so wonderful, the great and powerful doctor. He had his chance with you and …” He trailed off, his face bright red.
“I love you,” Dianne said, brushing his hair out of his eyes, scared at the expression on his face. “Not Alan.”
“No woman's ever come between us before,” he said.
“I don't want to come between you.”
“Then take my side,” he said.
“I will. I do,” she said, confused.
“I've never loved a girl before,” Tim said.
“Never?” Dianne asked, shaken to her core. She had her bad boy all right: He was too handsome, too wild, too charming not to have had girlfriends. He was telling her a blatant lie, and she knew it.
“I've been with girls, but I've never loved anyone,” he said, kissing her forehead, smoothing her hair. “Never until you.”
“People have to love each other through the worst,” Dianne said, her voice trembling. She had lived a blessed life: There was so much love in her family, and thankfully no one had ever been sick. But for some reason, she thought of Alan asking her about her happiest memory, her family pets, telling her about his life, and she swallowed hard.
“You think we can?” Tim asked, holding her face in his hands.
“Oh, I know we can,” she said.
“We're sticking together,” Tim said. “Starting
He told Dianne she was all he had.
He called her ship-to-shore twice a day. Anchoring on the Landsdowne Shoal, he shot off white flares spelling “Dianne” in Morse code. He saved the best lobsters he caught and cooked them for her dinner. They drank wine every night.
They made love. Holding her so tenderly, his arms quivered, and Tim whispered her name over and over. They'd lie in the bunk of his boat, wrapped in wool blankets and feeling the rhythm of the sea. At those times his eyes would look serious and afraid. He'd gaze at her face as if trying to memorize every feature.
“Don't ever leave me,” he'd whisper.
“Never,” she'd whisper back.
“I can't lose you,” he said. “This has to be forever.”
“How can you think it wouldn't be?” she asked, feeling scared. She was taking the same risk: To give herself this totally to another human being, she had to believe that he was going to stay always, be true to his word, love her until the end of time.
“Things change,” he said. “For some people.”
“Not for us,” she promised.
“My parents,” he said. That night he told her his version of what had happened to his family. They had been so close: His parents had been childhood sweethearts. They'd gotten married at twenty, hadthree little boys. Life had been a dream. They had fished, and crabbed, and swum. Their mother had made them picnics. And then Neil had gotten sick.
The family fell apart. His mother lost her mind: The sheer agony of seeing her son die drove her to drink. Unable to help her, his father stayed at sea. Alan turned to books, Tim went fishing. And Neil died anyway. Alan had told Dianne before, but that didn't make the story any easier to hear.
“I'm so sorry,” Dianne whispered.
“No one's ever going to leave me again,” Tim said. “Ever.”
“You can't control fate,” she said. “As much as you want to.”
Pulling back, Tim's eyes were dark and troubled. He peered into her face, wiping tears from his cheeks.
“I have to,” he said. “’Cause I'm not going through that again.”
“Losing someone you love must be awful,” Dianne said. “But look at Alan-he used your brother's death for something positive. Deciding he wanted to be a doctor.”
Tim moaned.
“Tim!”
“I'm sorry,” he said, and she could feel him shaking. “It's just that there's nothing positive about Neil dying. And I don't like you talking about Alan like he's so wonderful, the great and powerful doctor. He had his chance with you and …” He trailed off, his face bright red.
“I love you,” Dianne said, brushing his hair out of his eyes, scared at the expression on his face. “Not Alan.”
“No woman's ever come between us before,” he said.
“I don't want to come between you.”
“Then take my side,” he said.
“I will. I do,” she said, confused.
“I've never loved a girl before,” Tim said.
“Never?” Dianne asked, shaken to her core. She had her bad boy all right: He was too handsome, too wild, too charming not to have had girlfriends. He was telling her a blatant lie, and she knew it.
“I've been with girls, but I've never loved anyone,” he said, kissing her forehead, smoothing her hair. “Never until you.”
“People have to love each other through the worst,” Dianne said, her voice trembling. She had lived a blessed life: There was so much love in her family, and thankfully no one had ever been sick. But for some reason, she thought of Alan asking her about her happiest memory, her family pets, telling her about his life, and she swallowed hard.
“You think we can?” Tim asked, holding her face in his hands.
“Oh, I know we can,” she said.
“We're sticking together,” Tim said. “Starting
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