He couldnât drink his milk. âGo on and
play, then.â
âYour grandpa was just trying to teach you a
lesson,â sheâd said later that night, outside of the bedroom door where he lay
awake in the dark, her voice hoarse. âMaybe all that carrying on at the
breakfast table,â she half explained, leaving him to deduce that he shouldnât
have told her riddles, shouldnât have told the story about his friend at school
who went to SeaWorld, should have stayed quiet. She didnât come into the room,
but he felt sheâd wanted to, and hated her for those moments, feeling both her
desire to snatch him up and drive him to someplace far away, and her reverent
fear of the man that would allow for almost anything to happen in that
house.
Heâd never beaten Benâs mother or her sister Grace.
He didnât believe in beating the weaker sex. Heâd beaten the shit out of his own
son, Jimmy, whoâd moved to Nevada when he was seventeen years old, never to be
seen again, except for the one time Benâs mother and Grace had taken Ben and the
twins and their cousins on a road trip when Ben was ten. Jimmy was a tall, thin
man with a head that seemed too heavy for his neck, a wide face, slicked-down
black hair, and large hands that held tightly to each other or pulled on the
opposite handâs fingers. He managed a diner and took them there that first night
of the visit. It was late, they were road weary, the diner was decorated for
Christmas in July, but Ben was wide-eyed and fascinated by this uncle who barely
spoke, holding his body stiffly, laughing too loudly when one of the customers,
smoking in a booth, said, âAbout time you took a day off!â His outburst of
laughter was so awkward his mother and aunt exchanged a long, sad, meaningful
glance. Then they all sat down and ate rice pudding âon the house!,â Uncle Jimmy
boomed, though until then heâd been unusually soft-spoken. He sat up too
straight in the booth, not knowing how to ask the usual adult questions such as
âHowâs school?â and âHow old are you now?â but simply staring at all of them
with widely held hazel eyes, as if heâd never seen children before. Then said to
Ben, âDo you know what Rufus Youngblood, the Secret Service man who fell on
Johnson when Kennedy was shot, said?â
Ben shook his head.
âRufus Youngblood said had it been Nixon, he
wouldâve fallen the other way.â
Benâs mother and aunt Grace tried to help him. âSo,
Jimmy, the kids love your state! Right, kids?â And June said, âNevadaâs cool,â
and Russell echoed her, but Ben nodded and sat there thinking about Rufus
Youngblood, whose name would resound in his head, repeating itself for days as
he thought of his uncleâs face and how it had looked in the diner.
Before they left the next morning, after an awkward
good-bye that was strange for its brevity, given that his sisters hadnât seen
him in all those years and would probably not see him again for a long, long
time, he ran out to their carâjust as they were getting ready to get into itâand
bent down to sob in Benâs arms. Everyone watched this. Why Ben? Why sob in the
arms of a ten-year-old boy? Ben was terrified. He stood there, paralyzed,
waiting for it to end, on the verge of sobbing himself.
âJesus Christ! Leave the kid alone! You belong in
an institution, Jimmy!â
âGrace! Stop it!â said Benâs mother.
âI think youâve done us a favor by pretending we
donât exist!â Grace persisted. Jimmy had let go of Ben, taken a step back, and
put his arm over his eyes. âI donât understand myself anymore,â he said.
âJimmy, donât listen to Grace. Sheâs a wreck from
traveling,â said Benâs mother, so different from both of her siblings, possessed
of kindness that seemed to him, in those years before the
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