red one thirty, I huff and slowly crawl out of bed doing my best not to disturb him. I grab my robe wrapping it around my bare skin and walk quietly downstairs. I haven’t checked my email since I’ve been with Travis all day so I go to check just to see if I got anything from Eric. I know we’re meeting tomorrow, but I want to talk to him even if it’s just words in an email. I move the mouse turning on the screen and proceed to open the website for my email. Once logged in it displays at the top right of the screen, one unread message, so I click it, noting it’s from Eric’s email address.
Steph
I don’t know if you’ll get this before morning, but I just wanted to talk to you. I feel this would be so much easier if you had a phone, but if email is how we can communicate then I’ll take it. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow. I can’t go to sleep because all I can think of is you. When I saw you the other day so many emotions have come flooding back. I loved you ten years ago Stephanie and I still do. I know you’re married, but if friendship is what I can have then I’ll take it. I’ll do anything to be around you. I don’t ever want to lose you again.
Can’t wait to see you!
I love you,
Eric
Tears are softly rolling down my cheeks as I close his email. I can’t email him back because the things I want to say to him, I shouldn’t even be thinking as a married woman. Friends are all we can be, it’s all we’ll ever be. I moved on. I have Travis and I could never betray him. He doesn’t have to know about Eric’s and my friendship, but to hurt Travis by having an affair is not something he deserves. No one deserves that sort of betrayal. Especially with what happened between his parents. He didn’t tell me everything, but I know enough to know that it would kill him to lose me to another man. Even if he hurts me now and again I will never hurt him back. I log out of the email, deleting the history before turning off the computer. In the living room I grab a book turning on a side lamp and fall asleep to the beautiful words on the page.
Morning comes quickly and I’m awoken to the smell of Travis’ cologne. I blink my eyes a few times before opening them.
“Good morning. How come you came downstairs? You okay?” Travis asks calmly and apparently in a good mood.
“I’m fine. I was just having a hard time sleeping last night so I came down to read for a bit. I must’ve fallen asleep,” I reply, stretching my limbs and sitting up on the couch.
“Would you like some coffee?” he asks and I notice the two coffee cups he has in his hands.
“Yes. Thank you.”
He hands me one of the cups and then sits on the couch next to me. He’s careful when he sits down to avoid wrinkles on his black suit jacket. He’s dressed and ready for work.
“You know I love you right?” Travis asks and I look over to him in astonishment.
“Of course!”
“I don’t mean to be cruel to you. I just need you to understand why I get angry.”
I interrupt not wanting this conversation to get too serious, “Please, Travis. I know. You don’t need to explain anything to me. I understand.” I lean over kissing his cheek then taking a sip of my coffee.
“I just don’t want you to be angry with me, Steph. I don’t want this,” he says lifting up my bandaged hand, “to ever happen again.”
“It won’t. I promise, Travis.”
“Also, I’m sorry I did this to you,” he says caressing the darkened swollen bruise on my cheek. “You drive me crazy sometimes Steph, but I shouldn’t have hurt you like that. I
Steph
I don’t know if you’ll get this before morning, but I just wanted to talk to you. I feel this would be so much easier if you had a phone, but if email is how we can communicate then I’ll take it. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow. I can’t go to sleep because all I can think of is you. When I saw you the other day so many emotions have come flooding back. I loved you ten years ago Stephanie and I still do. I know you’re married, but if friendship is what I can have then I’ll take it. I’ll do anything to be around you. I don’t ever want to lose you again.
Can’t wait to see you!
I love you,
Eric
Tears are softly rolling down my cheeks as I close his email. I can’t email him back because the things I want to say to him, I shouldn’t even be thinking as a married woman. Friends are all we can be, it’s all we’ll ever be. I moved on. I have Travis and I could never betray him. He doesn’t have to know about Eric’s and my friendship, but to hurt Travis by having an affair is not something he deserves. No one deserves that sort of betrayal. Especially with what happened between his parents. He didn’t tell me everything, but I know enough to know that it would kill him to lose me to another man. Even if he hurts me now and again I will never hurt him back. I log out of the email, deleting the history before turning off the computer. In the living room I grab a book turning on a side lamp and fall asleep to the beautiful words on the page.
Morning comes quickly and I’m awoken to the smell of Travis’ cologne. I blink my eyes a few times before opening them.
“Good morning. How come you came downstairs? You okay?” Travis asks calmly and apparently in a good mood.
“I’m fine. I was just having a hard time sleeping last night so I came down to read for a bit. I must’ve fallen asleep,” I reply, stretching my limbs and sitting up on the couch.
“Would you like some coffee?” he asks and I notice the two coffee cups he has in his hands.
“Yes. Thank you.”
He hands me one of the cups and then sits on the couch next to me. He’s careful when he sits down to avoid wrinkles on his black suit jacket. He’s dressed and ready for work.
“You know I love you right?” Travis asks and I look over to him in astonishment.
“Of course!”
“I don’t mean to be cruel to you. I just need you to understand why I get angry.”
I interrupt not wanting this conversation to get too serious, “Please, Travis. I know. You don’t need to explain anything to me. I understand.” I lean over kissing his cheek then taking a sip of my coffee.
“I just don’t want you to be angry with me, Steph. I don’t want this,” he says lifting up my bandaged hand, “to ever happen again.”
“It won’t. I promise, Travis.”
“Also, I’m sorry I did this to you,” he says caressing the darkened swollen bruise on my cheek. “You drive me crazy sometimes Steph, but I shouldn’t have hurt you like that. I
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