answer, Clive cuts in. âAnya, I thought you said someone stole Billy,â he says. âOne of those dastardly thieves that rove the city looking for smelly old mutts to nab. I hear itâs practically an epidemic. Front page of the Chronicle week after week. âFlea-bitten Mutts Targeted by Crime Ring! Humane Society Paralyzed with Terror!â â
I can feel the anger radiating off Anya. âSomeone did steal him, Clive!â Her bony fingers with their blood-rimmed nails fan out on the table in front of her and I have the sense that sheâs about to launch herself across the table at her brother. âSome fucking prick stole my dog. And when I find out who did it, Iâm going to rip out his rotten heart and crush it.â She swings one of her legs up so that her huge black boot lands on the table. A crust of mud falls off the bottom and lands an inch from my plate.
Everyone is silent.
I donât have siblings, so I never experienced the sort of fiery, combative banter that seems to be status quo for Anya and Clive, but I know every family has its own idiosyncrasies. I look around the table, trying to get a read on where Anyaâs outburst falls on the range of normal for this family. Clive is biting blithely into a piece of toast. Henry is glaring at him. Terrence is keeping a close eye on his grandmother, who, in turn, watches Anya, her brow knotted. Huan appears to be frozen in the act of staring at his own plate.
âAnya,â Terrence pleads, âyour behavior . . . You have to get ahold of yourself.â
âIt would be easier for her to do that,â Henry says, âif Clive stopped taunting her.â
Clive snorts. âShe knows Iâm only joking!â He looks at Anya. âSince when are you so sensitive?â
Anya slides her boot off the table. âWow, Clive,â she says. âWhat a touching apology.â The flush has cleared from her face and her voice even has a hint of warmth in it. Iâm amazed at how quickly she is able to shift from rage to sarcasm.
If Iâm not careful, I think, Iâm going to walk out of this breakfast with food poisoning and whiplash.
âHey, Huan,â Clive says. He slides the platter of eggs down the table. âHave some eggs.â
Huan stares at the cold, black-flecked mound of eggs. Slowly, carefully, he puts a spoonful on his plate. He takes a bite, looks stricken, and turns to Anya.
âTheyâre really good,â he says in a solemn voice.
Clive and Rosie both laugh. Even Henry is struggling to keep a straight face. With his serious expression finally lifted, I realize he is actually quite handsomeânot a showy, manicured handsome like my ex-boyfriend John, but a subtler, more thoughtful version. He catches me looking at him and I quickly glance away.
âThank you, Huan, â Anya says, shoving her empty plate to the center of the table. âThe rest of you can go to hell.â She stands and gestures for me to follow her. âLetâs go find Billy.â
Chapter 7
I follow Anya out of the dining room, feeling oddly invigorated. All of that verbal sparring, those undercurrents of anger and love bubbling up to the surface in ever-so-brief burstsâitâs a therapistâs dream, really, and itâs more real-life action than Iâve seen in months. My enthusiasm quickly fades, however, when we step outside and head off in the direction, Anya tells me, of Buena Vista Park. Before weâre even a block away, I look for Sutro Tower, and I feel better when I see it.
Anya charges down the sidewalk, her eyes darting back and forth as she searches each driveway we pass. For such a wiry little person, she makes an awful lot of noise, her boots crunching loudly against the sidewalk with each step. When the leaves of a hedge rustle, she whips her head toward the sound, but itâs just a bird hopping out onto the sidewalk in front of us. Giselle bounds
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