out,â he said .
He waited fourteen hours before they called him to the nursery. Could you see him there, pressing his big face to the glass? He said he knew without asking which one was you. He said you looked like me, sort of, and sort of like the man on the dolphin channel .
Three days later he took me home. He had a present waiting for me, a grab-box from his latest estate sale. Grab-boxes are how the sale companies clear out a personâs small, junky items that canât be sold by themselves. Twenty-five, fifty cents, you take your chances. J.D. had gotten me a fifty-cent box. It had a pot of dead chrysanthemums, a glass frog for flower-arranging, a crocheted Kleenex-box cover, three shrimp forks, and a pair of ladiesâ worn-out terry cloth slippers still attached by a plastic thread. J.D. shoved his big feet in the slippers and tried inching along in them. âHere she is trying to get to the telephone,â he said. He wanted to make me laugh, and I wanted to. But I could only picture the old woman from the hospital elevator, the one who kept asking , Why are you doing this?
Dear Byrd ,
Dolphins help women have babies, and not just by swimming around on TV screens in hospital rooms .
Thereâs a man in Russia, a famous midwife who delivers babies underwater, in the Black Sea. He says dolphins are attracted to mothers. Itâs like they know. When a woman gives birth, the dolphins gather around her, smiling the way dolphins do, and lift the baby on their long noses and carry it up to the surface where it can breathe .
Dear Byrd ,
When I was growing up there was a strange old man who lived next door to my grandparents. Mr. Junius Beck. When my family went for our Sunday afternoon visits, my brother and I would slip over to Mr. Beckâs. He lived in a small white house with artificial flowers stuck in the ground outside the front door, his plastic garden. He would invite us inside and offer us candy hard as fossils. Then heâd take out his family album, a green notebook worn at the edges, and turn to a picture of his wife and infant daughter, who had died years earlier from a gas leak while he was away from home. He had photographed them at their funeralâin the picture, they were lying together in a coffin in their frilly clothes. âHereâs Annie Mae and the baby in the corpse,â he would say. My brother and I knew better than to laugh at his wrong word. Even as children we knew enough to say, âWeâre sorry, weâre so sorry.â The words seemed to work like a drug. Mr. Beck would let out a little sigh, a soft, rumbling sound from deep in his throat. Then he would close the picture album, set it back on the shelf, pass us the candy jar and let us fill our pockets .
We kept up this creepy Sunday ritual for a long timeâmonthsâuntil our parents learned about it and ordered us not to go back .
I didnât think about Mr. Beck again for years. Not until after you were born .
I was in pain from the surgery. Every part of me felt raw. I had nothing left of you, not even a picture in an album. I had a constant lump in my throat. No one sent get-well cards or brought casseroles because no one knew. I didnât expect or deserve sympathy .
I didnât lure unsuspecting children with candy. But I came to understand why Mr. Beck did. How sad and guilty and lost he must have felt. How he must have craved our pure, sweet, unjudging âIâm sorryâs .
Dear Byrd ,
Janet Worry expects me to turn my letters over to her, not keep them in a shoebox on a shelf in my closet. Itâs an Easy Spirit box, the one my black suede boots came in .
Janet isnât old but she always looks tired, like she isnât quite ready for whatever is happening. On the day you were born, she wore a sleeveless dress to the hospital. I could see powderpuffs of dark hair under her arms. Her dress was wrinkled. The papers she took out of her satchel were
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