Tate?”
The million dollar question.
For the past three months, I had been asking myself the exact same question. My mind had been battling with itself daily, fighting for what was the right thing to do. My time apart from Savannah gave me ample time to come face to face with my demons and a battle of epic proportions had come to the forefront. I was slowly losing. The battles of my emotions were slowly but surely swallowing me.
Right here in the middle of a crowded coffee shop with Savannah by my side was the moment when I would allow my past to come head-to-head with my present and ultimately affect my future.
“I want to know everything, and don’t hold back on the truth.”
Sav’s hand tightened its grip and her fingers interlocked firmly around mine as she turned in her seat to face me. I swallowed hard, my eyes quickly flashing to hers, desperately wanting to find comfort within her gorgeous green eyes. Nodding slowly in silent agreement, I reluctantly removed my gaze from my future and narrowed in on my past.
“Your mother was the best thing that ever happened to me. She was the love of my life—is still the love of my life. Our life was perfect. We were happily married with two amazing kids and I had my dream job. Everything was perfect.” His eyes moved from mine to Sav’s and back to mine. I could see the beads of sweat slowly forming on his brow. “There was a cocktail party one weekend at our neighbor’s house. Their daughter Diana was in town. She was a Hollywood socialite and the party was in her honor. Your mother and I had an argument earlier that afternoon and your mother refused to come to the party. I sat at the bar, drowning my sorrows with expensive scotch, and Diana approached me. One thing led to another and she took me home. I cheated on your mother that night, and I am not going to lie to you. From that moment, Diana and I started an affair and I was caught up with the lifestyle, the opportunities, and everything she could offer. It was all about the limelight, the parties, and the lifestyle.”
“So you just forgot about your children and your wife because you wanted to fuck some socialite all the way to Hollywood?” I spat.
He shifted in his chair before taking a massive gulp of his coffee. “Our affair continued for two years and then I found out she was pregnant.”
White noise surrounded me, my heart beat frantically in my chest, and I knew my hand was crushing Sav’s, but she didn’t complain or tear it away from me. What the fuck was I hearing? Did I just hear correctly? He’d chosen to leave his family—his children—for a random fuck and now he was dropping the bombshell of fathering another kid? My clothes suddenly felt too tight and my hands became sweaty as panic and anxiety swept over me. I needed air. I needed to get away from this. This was too much to hear.
“Sav, we have to go.” I began to stand but Sav stopped me by squeezing my hand and making me stop. I looked at her with pain filled eyes, desperate to stop hearing this atrocity. She stood from her chair, wrapped her arms around my waist, and held me. We were in the middle of a coffee shop surrounded by strangers and her arms offered a comfort I craved. I fell against her body, comforted by the feeling of Jellybean between us.
“You’ve already come so far, Tate. Let’s stay and we can close this chapter together. I am right here, okay?” she whispered softly in my ear and pulled away.
Hesitation and what-ifs swam through me. Could I leave and be okay with what I had found out? Would it be enough to move on? Would I be able to live the life I was begging for with the information I received?
Nodding slowly, I sat back down and took a long drink of my coffee. “So I have a brother or sister out there?” My question cut a deep, gaping wound in my heart.
“You have a brother. He is two years younger than you.”
“What was the woman’s name?”
“Diana Ryan.”
My world instantly felt like
The million dollar question.
For the past three months, I had been asking myself the exact same question. My mind had been battling with itself daily, fighting for what was the right thing to do. My time apart from Savannah gave me ample time to come face to face with my demons and a battle of epic proportions had come to the forefront. I was slowly losing. The battles of my emotions were slowly but surely swallowing me.
Right here in the middle of a crowded coffee shop with Savannah by my side was the moment when I would allow my past to come head-to-head with my present and ultimately affect my future.
“I want to know everything, and don’t hold back on the truth.”
Sav’s hand tightened its grip and her fingers interlocked firmly around mine as she turned in her seat to face me. I swallowed hard, my eyes quickly flashing to hers, desperately wanting to find comfort within her gorgeous green eyes. Nodding slowly in silent agreement, I reluctantly removed my gaze from my future and narrowed in on my past.
“Your mother was the best thing that ever happened to me. She was the love of my life—is still the love of my life. Our life was perfect. We were happily married with two amazing kids and I had my dream job. Everything was perfect.” His eyes moved from mine to Sav’s and back to mine. I could see the beads of sweat slowly forming on his brow. “There was a cocktail party one weekend at our neighbor’s house. Their daughter Diana was in town. She was a Hollywood socialite and the party was in her honor. Your mother and I had an argument earlier that afternoon and your mother refused to come to the party. I sat at the bar, drowning my sorrows with expensive scotch, and Diana approached me. One thing led to another and she took me home. I cheated on your mother that night, and I am not going to lie to you. From that moment, Diana and I started an affair and I was caught up with the lifestyle, the opportunities, and everything she could offer. It was all about the limelight, the parties, and the lifestyle.”
“So you just forgot about your children and your wife because you wanted to fuck some socialite all the way to Hollywood?” I spat.
He shifted in his chair before taking a massive gulp of his coffee. “Our affair continued for two years and then I found out she was pregnant.”
White noise surrounded me, my heart beat frantically in my chest, and I knew my hand was crushing Sav’s, but she didn’t complain or tear it away from me. What the fuck was I hearing? Did I just hear correctly? He’d chosen to leave his family—his children—for a random fuck and now he was dropping the bombshell of fathering another kid? My clothes suddenly felt too tight and my hands became sweaty as panic and anxiety swept over me. I needed air. I needed to get away from this. This was too much to hear.
“Sav, we have to go.” I began to stand but Sav stopped me by squeezing my hand and making me stop. I looked at her with pain filled eyes, desperate to stop hearing this atrocity. She stood from her chair, wrapped her arms around my waist, and held me. We were in the middle of a coffee shop surrounded by strangers and her arms offered a comfort I craved. I fell against her body, comforted by the feeling of Jellybean between us.
“You’ve already come so far, Tate. Let’s stay and we can close this chapter together. I am right here, okay?” she whispered softly in my ear and pulled away.
Hesitation and what-ifs swam through me. Could I leave and be okay with what I had found out? Would it be enough to move on? Would I be able to live the life I was begging for with the information I received?
Nodding slowly, I sat back down and took a long drink of my coffee. “So I have a brother or sister out there?” My question cut a deep, gaping wound in my heart.
“You have a brother. He is two years younger than you.”
“What was the woman’s name?”
“Diana Ryan.”
My world instantly felt like
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