Blood and Guts in High School by Kathy Acker Page B

scared
    think I'm as cheap as you are.
    Love loves luxuries, entwining and pleasant ways, May lingering dreams bring happiness all your days.
    To Slave trader
    Are you really crazy, doesn't you my love mean anything to?
    Do you think I'm than icy more frigid Illyria?
    To you so valuable, whoever she is, does that girl seem
    That without me controlled by the winds to go you want?
    You hear can the raging of oceans under bridges,
    brave? on hard cold floor how to sleep you can know?
    you, delicate and scared, survive chills and frosts you can, not used to the slightest snow? Let winter's be double the length of solstice let be dead 'cause of late the sailors Pleiades let no your from the Tyrrhenian be freed ropes muck let not unfriendly my throw away winds pleas!
    But, let there be no double winter dead winds, if you on a speeding carry away the waves ship from me prisoned on this empty and allow shore you horror with clenched to threaten wrist.
    But whatever happens whatever I, horror, you owe,
    I hope Galatea brings you luck
    may be sailed-by Ceraunian cliffs by oar felicitous
    let in Oricos with calmness.
    Me no one will take away from you
    but I, life, in front of your house bitter puss will keep screaming
    and not I may fail every sailor to ask passing-by,
    'Tell me, in what port in prison my boy is?'
    and I will cry, 'It's possible on Atracian he's set down shores
    or it's possible in Hylaeia, he my future is.'
    Janey wrote the following poems by herself
    A throw of the dice never will abolish chance
    I don't want nothing no more
    I just wanna be left alone
    I don want no cancer in my bones
    All you people in the streets You don wanna marry me
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    I don't know what or who's happening

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    I don't feel like this no no I don
    I care about loving I care about friends
    Somewhere in me maybe I do
    I've gotten really bored with my dreams
    Heat disease syphilis pregnancy
    All you creeps on the street get away from me
    Well tell me what excites me Well tell me what's important I got nowhere to go to There's no where that I want Every time I want someone
    it's just a dream Everything I want is a dream And dreams stink more than anything
    Heart disease syphilis pregnancy
    All you creeps on the streets get away from me
    No No No No No No NO NO NO
    No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No No
    Oh suck my cock honey suck my cock
    That's what it's all about
    I love how you turn yourself
    Around and upside-down inside-out
    for me
    just for me
    Oh I know
    I must taste sweet
    SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME
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    SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME SUCK ME
    sex is sweet
    now we've done with sex where we gonna go?
    If you have no pleasure to live for, do you want to live?
    grey grey everywhere grey
    blucky blucky shiv
    shifting shivers lurk in corners
    corners of the nothing
    everyone walking down the corridors
    they think they are the outside.
    in the corners there lurk
    wars and poisons and liars and dirt
    Just let me sleep under warmth crawl my eyes
    Here is my lullabye:
    If you have no mind to live for do you want to live?
    Now stars lights up my head
    I want the whole world to burn up instantly
    I want everyone and thing to be dead
    And then there'll be, not begin, another world
    Or so I've heard it said
    I don't know.
    Don't ask me nothing. I don't know. I'm in pain. Ask me