back for the funeral. I didn’t know he was coming.”
“How do you feel about that?”
“I’m not sure yet.”
“Ready for that nap? I’m tired.”
He sounded defeated and I hated to hear that, so I let him lead me upstairs and into bed. He fell asleep quickly but my mind wouldn’t stop so I just lay there thinking. Mostly about Alex and what he could possibly have to say to me after two years. I wasn’t sure I wanted to hear it but figured that I would find out the next day.
Oh, joy.
Chapter 12
Alex
Well that escalated quickly, didn’t it?
And wasn’t that just a kick to the damn heart to see someone else’s arms wrapped around the man I loved more than anything in the world? God, why did life have to be so screwed up? I hadn’t even realized that I had used the word “we” but Tyler sure picked up on it fast and used it as an excuse to get rid of me.
How dare he get all pissed off that I brought a friend with me for support when he was clearly about to sleep with a half-naked Riley?
FUCK!
I got into my car and just drove around aimlessly for a while. I really didn’t want to leave things like that with him. I needed to explain the whole situation with Donny so he didn’t think that I was being a scumbag, because I wasn’t. The whole thing was just so fucking complicated.
Let me tell you this, though, it was just as hard to walk away from him this second time as it was the first time. As I drove I tried to remember what exactly had made me think that leaving him was the right thing to do but I kept coming up blank. Fucking christ! I’d made the worst mistake of my life and I had to fix it.
So the question was, should I turn around and go back right to his house and demand to speak to him or go back to my mom’s and wait for the next night like he had asked me? My heart was insisting that I turn around and go all caveman on him until he listened because one more minute away from him might kill me, but my head rationalized that he would probably end up more pissed off if I came back right away, so I turned around and forced myself to drive back to my parents’ house.
Donny was sitting in the kitchen with my mother when I got back. “How’d things go?” Mama asked as soon as I walked in.
“Not as well as I had hoped.” I sat down at the table next to Donny and lay my head on my arms. “Maybe coming back was a bad idea.”
Mama walked over and smacked me on the back of the head with a wooden spoon. Ouch! “Don’t you dare go giving up now, Alex. This is something you wanted badly enough that you drove all the way up here to chase, so pursue it and if nothing else, at least you’ll know.”
I groaned loudly. “I know. It’s just so frustrating.”
“I’m sure it is, but you’ve got until the end of the week to see it through. Just don’t go home without knowing or you’ll end up regretting it for the rest of your life.” My mama was so damn smart. Why did I ever think leaving my family was a good idea?
“You should listen to your mother, Alex; she’s a wise one.” That remark came from my father who had just entered the room. Great, let’s just make my misery a family event.
“I know that, Daddy; she really is.”
Donny got up and left the kitchen with a huff, which meant he was pissed and that I needed to get up and chase him down.
I pushed my chair away from the table. “Let him go, sweetie,” my mother cautioned. “I’m sure listening to us talk about tracking down your ex-boyfriend is hard for him and he needs some space to cool off. He’ll come around but it’ll take some time. Remember, he’s nursing a broken heart, too.”
The front door slammed shut and it made me cringe. My first instinct was to chase him and try to make it better, but maybe pushing my presence on him was only making things worse. He came with me to be a good friend, so I needed to do the
“How do you feel about that?”
“I’m not sure yet.”
“Ready for that nap? I’m tired.”
He sounded defeated and I hated to hear that, so I let him lead me upstairs and into bed. He fell asleep quickly but my mind wouldn’t stop so I just lay there thinking. Mostly about Alex and what he could possibly have to say to me after two years. I wasn’t sure I wanted to hear it but figured that I would find out the next day.
Oh, joy.
Chapter 12
Alex
Well that escalated quickly, didn’t it?
And wasn’t that just a kick to the damn heart to see someone else’s arms wrapped around the man I loved more than anything in the world? God, why did life have to be so screwed up? I hadn’t even realized that I had used the word “we” but Tyler sure picked up on it fast and used it as an excuse to get rid of me.
How dare he get all pissed off that I brought a friend with me for support when he was clearly about to sleep with a half-naked Riley?
FUCK!
I got into my car and just drove around aimlessly for a while. I really didn’t want to leave things like that with him. I needed to explain the whole situation with Donny so he didn’t think that I was being a scumbag, because I wasn’t. The whole thing was just so fucking complicated.
Let me tell you this, though, it was just as hard to walk away from him this second time as it was the first time. As I drove I tried to remember what exactly had made me think that leaving him was the right thing to do but I kept coming up blank. Fucking christ! I’d made the worst mistake of my life and I had to fix it.
So the question was, should I turn around and go back right to his house and demand to speak to him or go back to my mom’s and wait for the next night like he had asked me? My heart was insisting that I turn around and go all caveman on him until he listened because one more minute away from him might kill me, but my head rationalized that he would probably end up more pissed off if I came back right away, so I turned around and forced myself to drive back to my parents’ house.
Donny was sitting in the kitchen with my mother when I got back. “How’d things go?” Mama asked as soon as I walked in.
“Not as well as I had hoped.” I sat down at the table next to Donny and lay my head on my arms. “Maybe coming back was a bad idea.”
Mama walked over and smacked me on the back of the head with a wooden spoon. Ouch! “Don’t you dare go giving up now, Alex. This is something you wanted badly enough that you drove all the way up here to chase, so pursue it and if nothing else, at least you’ll know.”
I groaned loudly. “I know. It’s just so frustrating.”
“I’m sure it is, but you’ve got until the end of the week to see it through. Just don’t go home without knowing or you’ll end up regretting it for the rest of your life.” My mama was so damn smart. Why did I ever think leaving my family was a good idea?
“You should listen to your mother, Alex; she’s a wise one.” That remark came from my father who had just entered the room. Great, let’s just make my misery a family event.
“I know that, Daddy; she really is.”
Donny got up and left the kitchen with a huff, which meant he was pissed and that I needed to get up and chase him down.
I pushed my chair away from the table. “Let him go, sweetie,” my mother cautioned. “I’m sure listening to us talk about tracking down your ex-boyfriend is hard for him and he needs some space to cool off. He’ll come around but it’ll take some time. Remember, he’s nursing a broken heart, too.”
The front door slammed shut and it made me cringe. My first instinct was to chase him and try to make it better, but maybe pushing my presence on him was only making things worse. He came with me to be a good friend, so I needed to do the
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