time—until you, I have never met another woman I wanted to marry.
“Now that I know you’re not available, I will have to find someone else to feel this deeply for however I am betting it won’t happen. I’ll settle because it’s what I am good at. That’s not to say I won’t love her but I won’t be in love with her. Perhaps in the end, that is best. Being in love with someone is very dangerous and can cause all kinds trouble.”
I lay next to him on my back. Our arms brushed lightly and I could already feel the need inside me rise like an oncoming tide. “Perhaps you’re right. I have never been in love either although I can honestly say Drew is the closest I have ever come to loving anyone. He is a great guy and he’s going to make some woman very happy but it won’t be me.”
“Didn’t he move out here for you?”
“Yeah, he did. Right after the accident with my father. He abandoned his PhD and started working at the coffee shop and bar just like Colin. The guy is a genius and really good with computers but he’d rather waste his life on the sheer chance we might get back together. I feel horrible because I don’t want to mislead him. He’s my best friend and that is the way we should stay. We weren’t meant to be in a romantic relationship together,” I explained softly.
Liam threw his arm across my waist. “Why? He seems like a decent guy. Is it the whole bisexual thing?”
“No, not at all.” I looked his way and smiled. “Actually, I never had a problem with it because he never disrespected me and he never cheated on me—not that I know of though he was an outrageous flirt. We were a great couple. It just so happens he was my first love and as ridiculous as it sounds, I knew there was more out there in life I needed to discover. I could live a very happy life with Drew but then I would always wonder what I missed out on and why I was so afraid of living life?
“I didn’t ever want to have those feelings for him. I didn’t want to honestly think he’d kept me from living a very different life than the one we ended up with together. We needed to experience other people and see the world. It just wasn’t meant to be. At least not now, not at this time in our life.”
He curled underneath me. “Stay here, at least until the morning. You could shower and change back into your dress. I’ll take you back to Colin’s then.”
“And how do we convince your brother nothing happened between us if I do that?”
Liam smiled devilishly. “Leave that to me.”
I couldn’t resist his charm and I turned on to my side, away from him. He spooned me and somehow it felt okay and all right. I had to keep trying to convince myself we’d done nothing wrong. Neither of us were in a relationship at the moment so I hadn’t cheated and he hadn’t either. We were two adults of reasonable age who felt like having sex and were attracted to one another so we did.
What could possibly be wrong with the situation? Other than I cared for his brother way too much and what if we did become involved? Did I have to tell Colin what had happened between Liam and I? Would he want to know his brother knew every inch of my body intimately? Should I have to disclose anything at all? If the situation were reversed and Colin had slept with Caitlyn before we decided to involve ourselves in a relationship, would I expect him to tell me about it? Furthermore, would I really want to know?
The answers to these questions came quite easily as it was definitely no. I didn’t want to know about any other women he’d been with although I knew he had a history. No one made it to their late twenties and early thirties without developing a history of love and loss, heartache, pain and rejection. It was a part of life as sure as death and if one wanted to play naïve, that was fine but I liked to walk through life with my eyes wide open.
Unfortunately, I couldn’t keep myself from settling within Liam’s warm embrace and
“Now that I know you’re not available, I will have to find someone else to feel this deeply for however I am betting it won’t happen. I’ll settle because it’s what I am good at. That’s not to say I won’t love her but I won’t be in love with her. Perhaps in the end, that is best. Being in love with someone is very dangerous and can cause all kinds trouble.”
I lay next to him on my back. Our arms brushed lightly and I could already feel the need inside me rise like an oncoming tide. “Perhaps you’re right. I have never been in love either although I can honestly say Drew is the closest I have ever come to loving anyone. He is a great guy and he’s going to make some woman very happy but it won’t be me.”
“Didn’t he move out here for you?”
“Yeah, he did. Right after the accident with my father. He abandoned his PhD and started working at the coffee shop and bar just like Colin. The guy is a genius and really good with computers but he’d rather waste his life on the sheer chance we might get back together. I feel horrible because I don’t want to mislead him. He’s my best friend and that is the way we should stay. We weren’t meant to be in a romantic relationship together,” I explained softly.
Liam threw his arm across my waist. “Why? He seems like a decent guy. Is it the whole bisexual thing?”
“No, not at all.” I looked his way and smiled. “Actually, I never had a problem with it because he never disrespected me and he never cheated on me—not that I know of though he was an outrageous flirt. We were a great couple. It just so happens he was my first love and as ridiculous as it sounds, I knew there was more out there in life I needed to discover. I could live a very happy life with Drew but then I would always wonder what I missed out on and why I was so afraid of living life?
“I didn’t ever want to have those feelings for him. I didn’t want to honestly think he’d kept me from living a very different life than the one we ended up with together. We needed to experience other people and see the world. It just wasn’t meant to be. At least not now, not at this time in our life.”
He curled underneath me. “Stay here, at least until the morning. You could shower and change back into your dress. I’ll take you back to Colin’s then.”
“And how do we convince your brother nothing happened between us if I do that?”
Liam smiled devilishly. “Leave that to me.”
I couldn’t resist his charm and I turned on to my side, away from him. He spooned me and somehow it felt okay and all right. I had to keep trying to convince myself we’d done nothing wrong. Neither of us were in a relationship at the moment so I hadn’t cheated and he hadn’t either. We were two adults of reasonable age who felt like having sex and were attracted to one another so we did.
What could possibly be wrong with the situation? Other than I cared for his brother way too much and what if we did become involved? Did I have to tell Colin what had happened between Liam and I? Would he want to know his brother knew every inch of my body intimately? Should I have to disclose anything at all? If the situation were reversed and Colin had slept with Caitlyn before we decided to involve ourselves in a relationship, would I expect him to tell me about it? Furthermore, would I really want to know?
The answers to these questions came quite easily as it was definitely no. I didn’t want to know about any other women he’d been with although I knew he had a history. No one made it to their late twenties and early thirties without developing a history of love and loss, heartache, pain and rejection. It was a part of life as sure as death and if one wanted to play naïve, that was fine but I liked to walk through life with my eyes wide open.
Unfortunately, I couldn’t keep myself from settling within Liam’s warm embrace and
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