As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner Page B

difference was that he would always be in bed for pa to wake him, getting him up at last in that first state of semi-idiocy like when it first started, worse than when he had stayed out all night.
    “She’s sure a stayer,” I told Cash. “I used to admire her, but I downright respect her now.”
    “It aint a woman,” he said.
    “You know,” I said. But he was watching me. “What is it, then?”
    “That’s what I aim to find out,” he said.
    “You can trail him through the woods all night if you want to,” I said. “I’m not.”
    “I aint trailing him,” he said.
    “What do you call it, then?”
    “I aint trailing him,” he said. “I dont mean it that way.”
    And so a few nights later I heard Jewel get up and climb out the window, and then I heard Cash get up and follow him. The next morning when I went to the barn, Cash was already there, the mules fed, and he was helping Dewey Dell milk. And when I saw him I knew that he knew what it was. Now and then I would catch him watching Jewel with a queer look, like having found out where Jewel went and what he was doing had given him something to really think about at last. But it was not a worried look; it was the kind of look I would see on him when I would find him doing some of Jewel’s work around the house, work that pa still thought Jewel was doing and that ma thought Dewey Dellwas doing. So I said nothing to him, believing that when he got done digesting it in his mind, he would tell me. But he never did.
    One morning—it was November then, five months since it started—Jewel was not in bed and he didn’t join us in the field. That was the first time ma learned anything about what had been going on. She sent Vardaman down to find where Jewel was, and after a while she came down too. It was as though, so long as the deceit ran along quiet and monotonous, all of us let ourselves be deceived, abetting it unawares or maybe through cowardice, since all people are cowards and naturally prefer any kind of treachery because it has a bland outside. But now it was like we had all—and by a kind of telepathic agreement of admitted fear—flung the whole thing back like covers on the bed and we all sitting bolt upright in our nakedness, staring at one another and saying “Now is the truth. He hasn’t come home. Something has happened to him. We let something happen to him.”
    Then we saw him. He came up along the ditch and then turned straight across the field, riding the horse. Its mane and tail were going, as though in motion they were carrying out the splotchy pattern of its coat: he looked like he was riding on a big pinwheel, barebacked, with a rope bridle, and no hat on his head.It was a descendant of those Texas ponies Flem Snopes brought here twenty-five years ago and auctioned off for two dollars a head and nobody but old Lon Quick ever caught his and still owned some of the blood because he could never give it away.
    He galloped up and stopped, his heels in the horse’s ribs and it dancing and swirling like the shape of its mane and tailand the splotches of its coat had nothing whatever to do with the flesh-and-bone horse inside them, and he sat there, looking at us.
    “Where did you get that horse?” pa said.
    “Bought it,” Jewel said. “From Mr Quick.”
    “Bought it?” pa said. “With what? Did you buy that thing on my word?”
    “It was my money,” Jewel said. “I earned it. You wont need to worry about it.”
    “Jewel,” ma said; “Jewel.”
    “It’s all right,” Cash said. “He earned the money. He cleaned up that forty acres of new ground Quick laid out last spring. He did it single handed, working at night by lantern. I saw him. So I dont reckon that horse cost anybody anything except Jewel. I dont reckon we need worry.”
    “Jewel,” ma said. “Jewel——” Then she said: “You come right to the house and go to bed.”
    “Not yet,” Jewel said. “I aint got time. I got to get me a saddle and bridle. Mr Quick