conscience a pure sociopath, but like most sociopaths I knew, there were places where she cared; she just never seemed to give a damn for her lovers.
“Raina went farther than even I wanted to go,” Nathaniel said, and he held me closer. I remembered him telling me that she’d done what would have amounted to a snuff film if he’d been human. He’d agreed to what she did, but hadn’t understood that some fantasies are never, ever meant to be real—not if you want to live and stay sane.
“I’m sorry, Jason, I forgot how you became a werewolf. Will watching Nathaniel be tied up while Jade plays with him be like a triggering event for the memory?” I asked.
J.J. hugged his arms tighter around her. “I still can’t believe that she did that to you. She was like a serial killer.”
I gave points to both of them that Jason had shared the story with J.J. and that she had been sympathetic and not blamed the victim for the kinky sex.
Jason looked at Nathaniel. “Doesn’t it bother you to be tied up and at the mercy of another female wereanimal, after what I know she did to you, too?”
“I enjoyed most of what she did more than you did. I still miss Gabriel and her sometimes.”
Jason shuddered and held J.J. tighter. “I don’t miss either of them.”
If J.J. hadn’t been in the room I would have said,
And I don’t regret killing either of them
, but I didn’t want to bring up the killing thing again. The police actually knew that I’d killed them in self-defense after they’d kidnapped me and tried to make me star in one of Raina’s real-life snuff films. They’d also tried to kill Jean-Claude and Richard off camera. No, I had no regrets about their deaths, nope, none. My conscience was so clean on that one that it was shiny.
“I like being tied up for Anita and Jade, and it’s helping her gain more confidence,” Nathaniel said.
“Would you let Jade tie you up, just you and her?” Jason asked.
“She wouldn’t want that, to be alone with just me, but no, I wouldn’t.”
“You think she’d really hurt you if I wasn’t there?” I asked.
“I don’t believe that Jade would ever hurt me, not really, but the men she sees as a threat, if they stepped over the line, she might kill first and ask your forgiveness later.”
“Agreed,” Jason said.
I looked from one to the other of them. “How did I miss this?”
“Jade wanted you to miss it,” Jason said.
“Is she dangerous to me?” J.J. asked.
He hugged and kissed her. “No, if I thought she was I wouldn’t have brought you here.”
“I’d still rather have you in the room with us, just in case,” she said.
“Me, too,” he said.
“Who gets to negotiate with Jade about extra men in the room?” I asked.
Everyone looked at me. “Why me?” I said, and even to me it sounded whiny.
“You’re her master,” Jason said.
“You rescued her from hundreds of years of torment; it makes her trust you above everyone,” Nathaniel said.
Both excellent points, so I went off to negotiate with a beautiful weretiger about bringing another woman into our bed for a girly three-way, and oh, by the way, I was throwing in Nathaniel, Jason, and honestly if I could manage it, Domino. I wasn’t sure how J.J. would feel about that last addition, but I’d try for it, for my own comfort level. I wasn’t homophobic, but I was confused about women. I’d always thought being a lesbian must be easier, because you were a girl dating girls, so you had a leg up on understanding each other. Nope, didn’t work that way, not at all. Dating a woman wasn’t that much different from dating men, except I sort of understood how to date men. Women confused me, or this woman did. She was like a field of emotional land mines that I didn’t know how to avoid. Were all women like this? Was this how my men felt about me? God, I hoped not.
7
J ADE WANTED TO try oral sex with J.J. and me, but she didn’t see the need for any men joining us. I stood firm.
“Raina went farther than even I wanted to go,” Nathaniel said, and he held me closer. I remembered him telling me that she’d done what would have amounted to a snuff film if he’d been human. He’d agreed to what she did, but hadn’t understood that some fantasies are never, ever meant to be real—not if you want to live and stay sane.
“I’m sorry, Jason, I forgot how you became a werewolf. Will watching Nathaniel be tied up while Jade plays with him be like a triggering event for the memory?” I asked.
J.J. hugged his arms tighter around her. “I still can’t believe that she did that to you. She was like a serial killer.”
I gave points to both of them that Jason had shared the story with J.J. and that she had been sympathetic and not blamed the victim for the kinky sex.
Jason looked at Nathaniel. “Doesn’t it bother you to be tied up and at the mercy of another female wereanimal, after what I know she did to you, too?”
“I enjoyed most of what she did more than you did. I still miss Gabriel and her sometimes.”
Jason shuddered and held J.J. tighter. “I don’t miss either of them.”
If J.J. hadn’t been in the room I would have said,
And I don’t regret killing either of them
, but I didn’t want to bring up the killing thing again. The police actually knew that I’d killed them in self-defense after they’d kidnapped me and tried to make me star in one of Raina’s real-life snuff films. They’d also tried to kill Jean-Claude and Richard off camera. No, I had no regrets about their deaths, nope, none. My conscience was so clean on that one that it was shiny.
“I like being tied up for Anita and Jade, and it’s helping her gain more confidence,” Nathaniel said.
“Would you let Jade tie you up, just you and her?” Jason asked.
“She wouldn’t want that, to be alone with just me, but no, I wouldn’t.”
“You think she’d really hurt you if I wasn’t there?” I asked.
“I don’t believe that Jade would ever hurt me, not really, but the men she sees as a threat, if they stepped over the line, she might kill first and ask your forgiveness later.”
“Agreed,” Jason said.
I looked from one to the other of them. “How did I miss this?”
“Jade wanted you to miss it,” Jason said.
“Is she dangerous to me?” J.J. asked.
He hugged and kissed her. “No, if I thought she was I wouldn’t have brought you here.”
“I’d still rather have you in the room with us, just in case,” she said.
“Me, too,” he said.
“Who gets to negotiate with Jade about extra men in the room?” I asked.
Everyone looked at me. “Why me?” I said, and even to me it sounded whiny.
“You’re her master,” Jason said.
“You rescued her from hundreds of years of torment; it makes her trust you above everyone,” Nathaniel said.
Both excellent points, so I went off to negotiate with a beautiful weretiger about bringing another woman into our bed for a girly three-way, and oh, by the way, I was throwing in Nathaniel, Jason, and honestly if I could manage it, Domino. I wasn’t sure how J.J. would feel about that last addition, but I’d try for it, for my own comfort level. I wasn’t homophobic, but I was confused about women. I’d always thought being a lesbian must be easier, because you were a girl dating girls, so you had a leg up on understanding each other. Nope, didn’t work that way, not at all. Dating a woman wasn’t that much different from dating men, except I sort of understood how to date men. Women confused me, or this woman did. She was like a field of emotional land mines that I didn’t know how to avoid. Were all women like this? Was this how my men felt about me? God, I hoped not.
7
J ADE WANTED TO try oral sex with J.J. and me, but she didn’t see the need for any men joining us. I stood firm.
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