back.”
I
know. I’m sorry I’ve just been swamped with all this information from my mom
and Stinger, and I want to make sure I get it all right,” She said and leaned
back in her chair as she stared at Tarren .
“I
know, girl. I just miss you.” Tarren reached across
the table and picked up one of the invoices. She knitted her brows as she read
it. “Is this for guns?” She held the invoice out.
“Who
knows what any of this stuff is really for, if you get my drift.”
Tarren nodded and
dropped the paper on the table. “Yeah, I am sure there is more illegal money
floating around than the legal kind.”
They
were silent for a few moments, and then Tarren exhaled.
“So, I have been meaning to tell you—”
“Do
I need to be sitting down for this?” Alexis grinned, because she already was,
but the tone of Tarren’s voice told her that whatever
she was going to say was probably a shocker.
“Funny,” Tarren said in a bland voice. “You remember when I
told you I fucked Lucas? Or I guess it was the other way around because all I
could do was hang on for that ride.”
Alexis
shook her head and started chuckling. “Please, no details.”
Tarren shook her head,
too. “No, but, well, I thought it was only going to be that one right, ya know? Anyway it seemed like that since we went our
separate ways and all for a while, but then things kind of picked back up.”
“So
you’re Lucas’s old lady?”
Tarren held up her
hands. “Hold the fuck up now, let’s not get crazy.
Being an old lady is serious shit, you know that.”
Alexis
nodded. “So then what? You’re like boyfriend and
girlfriend then?”
Tarren was quiet for a
few moments, and Alexis could tell she was really thinking hard. Her friend
wore a hard exterior, tried to play things off like they were nothing, but deep
down Alexis knew she kept a lot of shit buried.
“You
want to be his old lady, don’t you?” Alexis said more quietly, and when Tarren looked up at her she knew her friend had been trying
to play it off like it wasn’t a big deal. “Why don’t you just talk to him? You
guys have something between you. I know you do because I can hear it in your
voice whenever you’ve talked about him.”
Tarren exhaled loudly
and leaned back in her chair. She picked at the hem of her tank top and then
rested her head back on the chair. “Yeah, you have always been the one to see
through my bullshit,” Tarren said but still stared at
the ceiling. “I think I love him, but I think he only wants sex with me. I mean
isn’t that all he’s after with any girl he spends a significant amount of time
with?” Tarren looked at her then, and there was this
vulnerability in her eyes that Alexis had never seen before.
She
didn’t want to say that yes, Lucas was like that, as were all the single
members of the club. They had a lot of random sex with the club whores, and
although Alexis wasn’t all about that and found it pretty disgusting, that was
just the lifestyle they chose to lead. “If you care for him as much as you say
you do—which I can see on your face that you do—then you need to tell him.”
Alexis had no clue how Lucas felt, and yes, he was one of the bigger man-whores
in the club, there was no doubt that he could care just as hard and deeply as
the other men that had old ladies.
“My
biggest fear is spilling my heart, something you know I don’t do, and Lucas
just telling me this is nothing more than a sexual relationship.”
“Do
you think that is really what he would say?”
Tarren didn’t respond
right away, but instead shook her head and sighed heavily. “He acts differently
with me, and I’d like to think it’s because I mean more to him than the tramps
he fucked before we started going out on what I consider dates, but…” She
shrugged and looked at the ground again. “I honestly don’t know what Lucas
wants out of life, and if what we are doing would be classified by him as
having a good time with a girl
I
know. I’m sorry I’ve just been swamped with all this information from my mom
and Stinger, and I want to make sure I get it all right,” She said and leaned
back in her chair as she stared at Tarren .
“I
know, girl. I just miss you.” Tarren reached across
the table and picked up one of the invoices. She knitted her brows as she read
it. “Is this for guns?” She held the invoice out.
“Who
knows what any of this stuff is really for, if you get my drift.”
Tarren nodded and
dropped the paper on the table. “Yeah, I am sure there is more illegal money
floating around than the legal kind.”
They
were silent for a few moments, and then Tarren exhaled.
“So, I have been meaning to tell you—”
“Do
I need to be sitting down for this?” Alexis grinned, because she already was,
but the tone of Tarren’s voice told her that whatever
she was going to say was probably a shocker.
“Funny,” Tarren said in a bland voice. “You remember when I
told you I fucked Lucas? Or I guess it was the other way around because all I
could do was hang on for that ride.”
Alexis
shook her head and started chuckling. “Please, no details.”
Tarren shook her head,
too. “No, but, well, I thought it was only going to be that one right, ya know? Anyway it seemed like that since we went our
separate ways and all for a while, but then things kind of picked back up.”
“So
you’re Lucas’s old lady?”
Tarren held up her
hands. “Hold the fuck up now, let’s not get crazy.
Being an old lady is serious shit, you know that.”
Alexis
nodded. “So then what? You’re like boyfriend and
girlfriend then?”
Tarren was quiet for a
few moments, and Alexis could tell she was really thinking hard. Her friend
wore a hard exterior, tried to play things off like they were nothing, but deep
down Alexis knew she kept a lot of shit buried.
“You
want to be his old lady, don’t you?” Alexis said more quietly, and when Tarren looked up at her she knew her friend had been trying
to play it off like it wasn’t a big deal. “Why don’t you just talk to him? You
guys have something between you. I know you do because I can hear it in your
voice whenever you’ve talked about him.”
Tarren exhaled loudly
and leaned back in her chair. She picked at the hem of her tank top and then
rested her head back on the chair. “Yeah, you have always been the one to see
through my bullshit,” Tarren said but still stared at
the ceiling. “I think I love him, but I think he only wants sex with me. I mean
isn’t that all he’s after with any girl he spends a significant amount of time
with?” Tarren looked at her then, and there was this
vulnerability in her eyes that Alexis had never seen before.
She
didn’t want to say that yes, Lucas was like that, as were all the single
members of the club. They had a lot of random sex with the club whores, and
although Alexis wasn’t all about that and found it pretty disgusting, that was
just the lifestyle they chose to lead. “If you care for him as much as you say
you do—which I can see on your face that you do—then you need to tell him.”
Alexis had no clue how Lucas felt, and yes, he was one of the bigger man-whores
in the club, there was no doubt that he could care just as hard and deeply as
the other men that had old ladies.
“My
biggest fear is spilling my heart, something you know I don’t do, and Lucas
just telling me this is nothing more than a sexual relationship.”
“Do
you think that is really what he would say?”
Tarren didn’t respond
right away, but instead shook her head and sighed heavily. “He acts differently
with me, and I’d like to think it’s because I mean more to him than the tramps
he fucked before we started going out on what I consider dates, but…” She
shrugged and looked at the ground again. “I honestly don’t know what Lucas
wants out of life, and if what we are doing would be classified by him as
having a good time with a girl
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