He’s actually marrying Blue. Can you believe that shit?!
It’s so crazy, but they are a great couple. He’s a different Jessie with her. I mean he’s still Jessie, and we don’t want him any other way, but he’s just better. You know? He’s happy. I love that they’re happy.
My own life is a mess. I am just a typical rocker. Screwing faceless women all the time. But, well, now there’s a complication… Clove… Dade’s baby sister. She’s living in Dade’s house now and I live there, too. We fight constantly. She’s so different. She’s beautiful, but not like because she works at it. She’s naturally beautiful and she’s smart. She can cook. Oh my God, can she cook. She’s perfect. Like something on a damn Hallmark movie. I hate it. Well, that’s not true. I don’t hate it. I actually kind of dig it. She makes me think. But she hates me. She thinks I’m a disgusting jerk. And I kind of am. She’s caught me with women multiple times now. I repulse her.
I thought I hated her, too. I mean she annoys the shit out of me. But I don’t hate her. I actually like her. I like that she doesn’t fawn all over me. Isn’t that some shit?!
While most women look at me and their eyes light up… she looks at me and it’s like she wants to punch me in the face. Why is it that the one woman I kind of want to fawn over me doesn’t? The universe is cruel, man.
Anyway, there’s more. She’s been dealt a bad hand and life is kind of laughing at her. I hate that. She doesn’t deserve it. She lived in Jude’s house in L.A. and dated the property manager who was an ass. A real creep. He cheated on her and did some bad shit. Some criminal bad shit. She’s also now pregnant. For the said creep. I want to beat his face in. What kind of man does that?
I don’t understand how a man with someone so perfect could throw them away.
I’ve realized lately that the annoyance I feel for Clove… well, it might not be that. Oh, she annoys me plenty. But it gives me a thrill. I like her. I really like her. I think about her in ways that I shouldn’t. She’s so innocent and pure. I mean other than the being pregnant for a criminal thing. And I’m just not. I’m not innocent and I’m damn sure not pure.
I kissed her. I don’t know why and I didn’t plan it, but I kissed her. I kiss a lot of people. This kiss was… different. It actually… meant something. And before she freaked out, she kissed me back…
What do I do, John? I could really use some guidance. I could really use my big brother. And it sucks ass that you’re not here.
It sucks that you died! This is the shit I need you for. You’re supposed to be here. You’re supposed to offer me words of wisdom because you’ve already done all this. But, you aren’t here.
I need your help. I need to know what I need to do. I need to know if I should go after Clove. It’s a big decision and it affects so many people. I just don’t know what to do. I want her, but is it selfish of me to want her? I think I’m bad for her, like I’d taint her or some shit. What if she loses her goodness?
Goddammit, John! Why did you have to die?!”
I don’t get an answer, but then again, I didn’t expect to. It felt really good to get all of that out. Just then the new Luke Bryan song comes on the radio. I read somewhere it was about his brother. I smile as I clink our beers together and finish mine. Then, picking up the trash, I pack it all in the truck, and head back towards town.
Thanks, John. I guess you gave me an answer after all. I miss you, man.
Chapter Ten
Clove
S hopping with Bradi and Blue today was so fun. They spent so much money and refused to let me pay for anything. I have maternity clothes, nursery stuff, and even some neutral baby clothes. They did let me spring for the manicures though and they talked me into a funky pink and lime manicure that is not really me, but I do kind of like it.
I offered to cook them some dinner, but they are both
It’s so crazy, but they are a great couple. He’s a different Jessie with her. I mean he’s still Jessie, and we don’t want him any other way, but he’s just better. You know? He’s happy. I love that they’re happy.
My own life is a mess. I am just a typical rocker. Screwing faceless women all the time. But, well, now there’s a complication… Clove… Dade’s baby sister. She’s living in Dade’s house now and I live there, too. We fight constantly. She’s so different. She’s beautiful, but not like because she works at it. She’s naturally beautiful and she’s smart. She can cook. Oh my God, can she cook. She’s perfect. Like something on a damn Hallmark movie. I hate it. Well, that’s not true. I don’t hate it. I actually kind of dig it. She makes me think. But she hates me. She thinks I’m a disgusting jerk. And I kind of am. She’s caught me with women multiple times now. I repulse her.
I thought I hated her, too. I mean she annoys the shit out of me. But I don’t hate her. I actually like her. I like that she doesn’t fawn all over me. Isn’t that some shit?!
While most women look at me and their eyes light up… she looks at me and it’s like she wants to punch me in the face. Why is it that the one woman I kind of want to fawn over me doesn’t? The universe is cruel, man.
Anyway, there’s more. She’s been dealt a bad hand and life is kind of laughing at her. I hate that. She doesn’t deserve it. She lived in Jude’s house in L.A. and dated the property manager who was an ass. A real creep. He cheated on her and did some bad shit. Some criminal bad shit. She’s also now pregnant. For the said creep. I want to beat his face in. What kind of man does that?
I don’t understand how a man with someone so perfect could throw them away.
I’ve realized lately that the annoyance I feel for Clove… well, it might not be that. Oh, she annoys me plenty. But it gives me a thrill. I like her. I really like her. I think about her in ways that I shouldn’t. She’s so innocent and pure. I mean other than the being pregnant for a criminal thing. And I’m just not. I’m not innocent and I’m damn sure not pure.
I kissed her. I don’t know why and I didn’t plan it, but I kissed her. I kiss a lot of people. This kiss was… different. It actually… meant something. And before she freaked out, she kissed me back…
What do I do, John? I could really use some guidance. I could really use my big brother. And it sucks ass that you’re not here.
It sucks that you died! This is the shit I need you for. You’re supposed to be here. You’re supposed to offer me words of wisdom because you’ve already done all this. But, you aren’t here.
I need your help. I need to know what I need to do. I need to know if I should go after Clove. It’s a big decision and it affects so many people. I just don’t know what to do. I want her, but is it selfish of me to want her? I think I’m bad for her, like I’d taint her or some shit. What if she loses her goodness?
Goddammit, John! Why did you have to die?!”
I don’t get an answer, but then again, I didn’t expect to. It felt really good to get all of that out. Just then the new Luke Bryan song comes on the radio. I read somewhere it was about his brother. I smile as I clink our beers together and finish mine. Then, picking up the trash, I pack it all in the truck, and head back towards town.
Thanks, John. I guess you gave me an answer after all. I miss you, man.
Chapter Ten
Clove
S hopping with Bradi and Blue today was so fun. They spent so much money and refused to let me pay for anything. I have maternity clothes, nursery stuff, and even some neutral baby clothes. They did let me spring for the manicures though and they talked me into a funky pink and lime manicure that is not really me, but I do kind of like it.
I offered to cook them some dinner, but they are both
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