do and in any event was exhausted and so could not go upstairs with her when he took her home. But what he really had wanted was just what he finally had: silence, the seclusion of his library, and a tray provided by Martin with a sandwich in case he was hungry, cognac, coffee and a bowl of pistachios placed conveniently at his right hand.
He sat for a time, enjoying the silence. He watched a newscast on television, then enjoyed the silence again, letting the day unwind in his thoughts like a movie reel, speeding up, slowing down, reversing.
They had a cast for The Magician, or they would have one by tomorrow when they filled the minor parts. Marilyn was working on sets; Fritz was agonizing, as he always did; the theater was booked, the rehearsal space rented, the first run-through set for Thursday. Everything was on schedule.
He finished his cognac and reached out to put the glass on the tray, and his glance fell on the box of Jessicaâs letters. No time tonight. Iâm too tired. But he continued to gaze at the box. Well, maybe just one.
Dearest Constance, Iâm sorry I havenât written in so long; Iâve missed writing to you even though we talk on the telephone now. It really is wonderful to hear your voice (even better to be with you, oh, so long ago now . . . wasnât that a splendid day we had together at my graduation?) but thereâs something special about letters so I decided to write this time instead of calling. I was sorry to leave Steppenwolfâthose were the most wonderful two years of my life and Iâve never learned so much so fastâbut you were right: Anna Christie on Broadway is much more important. Did I tell you what Phil Ballan said when he called? This was how it went:
Deep, deep voice: âMiss Fontaine, I was in Chicago last week and caught the latest play at Steppenwolf.â Then he stopped and it took me a minute to understand that he was waiting for me to say something. âReally?â said I, just a trifle breathlessly. His voice got deeper. âI must tell you that I have never been as impressed with a performance at Steppenwolf as I was with yours.â He stopped again, waiting, and I said, âOh, thank youââso unutterably dullâ why couldnât I think of something clever? But I couldnât quite get myself together because except for you nobody from Broadway has ever told me Iâm really good. âAnd,â he said, dragging it out like Santa with his presents, âwe want you to come to New York and read for Anna Christie. I think youâll be an absolutely splendid Anna. And Iâm never wrong about my judgement.â Another time I might have laughed, but not this time: he could have whinnied like a horse and I would have thought it was a beautiful sound. And then he said, âAre you still there? Youâre coming to New York?â and âYes!â burst out of me, and then I apologized because I thought Iâd blown that poor manâs ear off through the telephone.
So now here I am, back in New Yorkâso enormous and hectic after Chicago and my âfamilyâ at Steppenwolf, but in another way a lot of fun: like walking into a huge party where I donât know anyone but they all look familiar. I found a tiny apartment in SoHo; it barely has room to turn around but it has a window and for about forty minutes a day it gets sunshine. Of course Iâm almost never home for those forty minutes, but itâs nice to know itâs there anyway. Isnât it amazing how little sunshine we see when weâre working on a play? Itâs like we forget what daylight looks like. Iâve had two long talks with the director about how to play Anna; he has some ideas I never thought of that might work. The best part is, he cares about what I think and Iâve thought about nothing else but playing Anna since that phone call so I have some very definite ideas of my own. Do you
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